Burnout is a racing game series I played on the PS2 and also a state of being I inhabit currently~

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Hey, hi. How’re you?

I wrote 1,200 words of a short story a week ago and haven’t written a single word since. *And I’m proud of myself *. I did those 1,200 words good. Real good. Good word, good amount. Real proud.

I’ve been staying with a friend for a concert we went to Tuesday and Wednesday (my makeup got a lot of compliments and I had such a good time, just dealing with the post-show-blues currently) and I’m staying with them because we got the tickets in, like, January, when I wasn’t sure where I’d be moving when my lease was up in *July* and so we got tickets for the Chicago show and not the Columbus show even though I ended up staying in Columbus after all, and that wouldn’t really have been an issue but I also got in a minor fender bender earlier this year that ended up totalling my car and leaving me carless, meaning they had to come and get me in Columbus which is like a four hour drive both ways, so now I’m still here at their place, on Friday, because I have to wait for them to be able to drive me back.

Which is not a bad thing. They’re my best friends and getting to see them and their kids has been great. But the circumstances that led to me staying here for a whole week have been on my mind because they blow lmao

If last year was one emotional blow after another, this year has been one financial blow after another. It’s been exhausting. Between the car, moving, and emergency vet/hospital visits, there has been little rest that wasn’t interrupted by stress or anxiety. And the constant work has been exhausting.

Back in 2018 I hit a wave of burnout that took me out of commission for six whole months. SIX months where I, the person who needs to work to feel human, couldn’t write a single word. Anytime I feel the fringes of burnout or depression, I’m worried it’s going to be an extended stay like that again.

This is all to say that I’m trying to take it easy right now. Which is hard when I need to do projects to pay rent, but I’m trying.

Soul Cemetery will be coming to itch this month (yippee yippee) and I’m excited for it. I really hope it resonates with people. It’s my first Solo Game since Red Snow, and it’s maybe the last full project that’ll be released this year. I’ve got a few smaller things I’ve been poking at but finding the juice to work on them has been difficult. I’ll be sharing them as WIPs on my patreon (go check it out?) but other than that, it might be kinda quiet from me.

I can’t wait to share Soul Cemetery with y’all. I’ll be making a post about it soon~

Until then

Snow~

P.S. - I’m doing fulfillment for the Armour Astir kickstarter. You should go back it. If we make 20k in UK money, we’re gonna buy swords <3